1st May 1985

I decided to break a self set rule. I admit that I have never really overcome an event that took place almost 20 years ago. It is because I find myself mentioning the event every year around this time. Why? It is long ago. It has no impact on me any more. Or is that wrong? Probably and I have been thinking about consulting a psychologist before. But what shall that person tell, what I do not know? Nothing.

Well, so far, I have decided to keep it as I traditionally handled it. I will do nothing on 30th April and 1st May. Until I moved to Frankfurt, I had been going to Gütersloh every year. But then I skipped it. Maybe, it is time to fully go on and come over it. I have an invitation for brunch for Sunday. Maybe, I should just confirm. I mean, what is the point of continuing mourning.